Message In A Bottle
Continuing from my post named Vodafone, the message was delivered to Chennai girl. But I haven't seen any hit from India. All I could see is me from the UK. Yeah, I am the admin. So, I can see the stats.
So, why haven't I seen any hits yet? Below are my theories.
Intelligence is my curse. Chennai girl is the enigma code I can't crack. And that makes me mad.
For example, look at my wife. Her every action is fueled by one thing. Hatred towards me. So, it's easy to anticipate what she will do. The last thing she will do is to spy on me. Because she hates me and she doesn't want to know what I am doing. Still, I have enabled dual security in all my accounts. Even if she has guessed my password somehow, she will still need an authentication code sent to my main Android phone. So, it's almost impossible to crack. Better safe than sorry. Also, I do a monthly sweep of recognised devices on google devices.
Now, look at the Chennai girl. For simplicity, I will call her Ann. Ann left the job and disappeared in March this year. She forcefully removed herself from all Whatsapp groups I was a member of. After that, I have no data about Ann. Where she is or what she was doing. Until August this year.
I don't know how I came to know, that she has a youtube channel. I think I searched Google with her name. I saw a couple of videos where she was making some dish or train journey to her hometown. I subscribed her. Then I forgot about it. After a week, I was watching some videos on Youtube and saw that something in the notifications. When I checked, she has been uploading good night videos every day after I subscribed. She will delete them the next day.
I liked the videos so that she will know that I watched them. But, liking them will not tell her it was me. So decided to comment. Once I commented, she liked the comment. That video was deleted next day. I was excited that I was getting some communication. Then the next day, she messaged me in Whatsapp asking me not to do anything on her Channel. Someone else subscribed her Channel. She didn't know who it was. My guess was her husband. She didn't say anything for that. I was absolutely sure that it was not my wife. She didn't care enough to spy.
That is when She asked me to wait 5 years. And that she is living alone. I asked her what happened. She refused to say anything. All she said was to believe in our love.
I wanted to say a lot of things. Like why would her parents let us marry after 5 years? They hate me now. They will hate me then too. So, I made some videos conveying the points to her. I had no reason to doubt anyone else lurking on my Channel. She saw the videos. But, someone else did too. There were three unique viewers. One me, one Ann and one spy. Her suspicions were true. Then she suddenly deleted her Channel and left. Then I knew that the spy was her husband. Her parents were too old to know what youtube is. Her brother doesn't care enough to spy.
Her leaving Youtube was a shock to me. But she has been visiting my Channel. Donno if it was her or the spy.
Her signature was almost nil in Google search. That's when one day, Quora appeared. I didn't know what quora were. I went there and saw that she was a big shot there with 30k views and hundreds of upvotes. I thought 30k is a big deal. Now I know it's not. She has been writing in quora, way before our Youtube adventure. So, I knew that she wanted me to find her. I found a setting in Quora that makes your profile searchable. It's off by default. But why did she want me to find her?
Then I started going through her answers. Then I found that she has posted a photo of herself in an answer. She has lost a lot of weight. She is back to my old Ann, by appearance. That's what she wanted me to find. That photo is still my wallpaper.
Then one of our mutual friends said that he called her and she is living in Chennai with her sister-in-law. That coincided with the info she gave me about her living separately.
That's when I found the thread where people were talking about why they regret their marriage. What if it was not just the photo she wanted me to find? What if she has written an answer there? Obviously, she will not write on her own name. It will be anonymous. I started reading thousands of answers in that thread just to find a story that was similar to ours. I was exhausted after reading around 200 answers. I gave up.
That was when I decided to publish something I have already written partly. I poured my heart out. Didn't leave any main details out. That is the same post we have in this blog as well. I didn't give any names other than saying that she is an author in Quora. But I didn't publish it anonymously. If anyone from TCS who knows both of us sees that post, they will know that it was Ann.
She must have seen that answer. She deleted her Quora account and ran, again. I kept on writing answers in Quora until I have made 40k views. Then I lost interest. I was there because of Ann.
So, why am I calling Ann an enigma? Because I know that she will always love me. Just like it's with me. But still, she will not talk to me, even if I tried to contact. She said no when I asked her hand in marriage. I thought she would be excited. Both of our dream from 2016 will become true. I was not asking her to marry me right away. I needed someone to help me through this hard phase of my life. Whoever does help me, I will be indebted to them forever. I wanted it to be her than someone else. If it's someone else, I will need to fulfil my gratitude to them irrespective of my feelings. I will never be available. Even if the person I marry is abusive, I let them. But never break my promise again.
I know that I promised to believe in our love in 2017 to Ann. I still believe in it. But what is the point me believing in it after I am dead?
Peace out.
So, why haven't I seen any hits yet? Below are my theories.
- She hasn't seen the message yet - This is the simplest explanation. She must be extremely busy with stuff so that she hardly checks her phone. ut if this is the case, I will see hits in the next two days.
- She had added me to the blocked list on her phone. That means even if the message was delivered to her by the Carrier, she will not see it. In order to see the blocked messages, she needs to go to the settings and check.
- She has seen it but decided to ignore. This is the most feasible scenario. The reason why she will decide to do that is beyond me.
Intelligence is my curse. Chennai girl is the enigma code I can't crack. And that makes me mad.
For example, look at my wife. Her every action is fueled by one thing. Hatred towards me. So, it's easy to anticipate what she will do. The last thing she will do is to spy on me. Because she hates me and she doesn't want to know what I am doing. Still, I have enabled dual security in all my accounts. Even if she has guessed my password somehow, she will still need an authentication code sent to my main Android phone. So, it's almost impossible to crack. Better safe than sorry. Also, I do a monthly sweep of recognised devices on google devices.
Now, look at the Chennai girl. For simplicity, I will call her Ann. Ann left the job and disappeared in March this year. She forcefully removed herself from all Whatsapp groups I was a member of. After that, I have no data about Ann. Where she is or what she was doing. Until August this year.
I don't know how I came to know, that she has a youtube channel. I think I searched Google with her name. I saw a couple of videos where she was making some dish or train journey to her hometown. I subscribed her. Then I forgot about it. After a week, I was watching some videos on Youtube and saw that something in the notifications. When I checked, she has been uploading good night videos every day after I subscribed. She will delete them the next day.
I liked the videos so that she will know that I watched them. But, liking them will not tell her it was me. So decided to comment. Once I commented, she liked the comment. That video was deleted next day. I was excited that I was getting some communication. Then the next day, she messaged me in Whatsapp asking me not to do anything on her Channel. Someone else subscribed her Channel. She didn't know who it was. My guess was her husband. She didn't say anything for that. I was absolutely sure that it was not my wife. She didn't care enough to spy.
That is when She asked me to wait 5 years. And that she is living alone. I asked her what happened. She refused to say anything. All she said was to believe in our love.
I wanted to say a lot of things. Like why would her parents let us marry after 5 years? They hate me now. They will hate me then too. So, I made some videos conveying the points to her. I had no reason to doubt anyone else lurking on my Channel. She saw the videos. But, someone else did too. There were three unique viewers. One me, one Ann and one spy. Her suspicions were true. Then she suddenly deleted her Channel and left. Then I knew that the spy was her husband. Her parents were too old to know what youtube is. Her brother doesn't care enough to spy.
Her leaving Youtube was a shock to me. But she has been visiting my Channel. Donno if it was her or the spy.
Her signature was almost nil in Google search. That's when one day, Quora appeared. I didn't know what quora were. I went there and saw that she was a big shot there with 30k views and hundreds of upvotes. I thought 30k is a big deal. Now I know it's not. She has been writing in quora, way before our Youtube adventure. So, I knew that she wanted me to find her. I found a setting in Quora that makes your profile searchable. It's off by default. But why did she want me to find her?
Then I started going through her answers. Then I found that she has posted a photo of herself in an answer. She has lost a lot of weight. She is back to my old Ann, by appearance. That's what she wanted me to find. That photo is still my wallpaper.
Then one of our mutual friends said that he called her and she is living in Chennai with her sister-in-law. That coincided with the info she gave me about her living separately.
That's when I found the thread where people were talking about why they regret their marriage. What if it was not just the photo she wanted me to find? What if she has written an answer there? Obviously, she will not write on her own name. It will be anonymous. I started reading thousands of answers in that thread just to find a story that was similar to ours. I was exhausted after reading around 200 answers. I gave up.
That was when I decided to publish something I have already written partly. I poured my heart out. Didn't leave any main details out. That is the same post we have in this blog as well. I didn't give any names other than saying that she is an author in Quora. But I didn't publish it anonymously. If anyone from TCS who knows both of us sees that post, they will know that it was Ann.
She must have seen that answer. She deleted her Quora account and ran, again. I kept on writing answers in Quora until I have made 40k views. Then I lost interest. I was there because of Ann.
So, why am I calling Ann an enigma? Because I know that she will always love me. Just like it's with me. But still, she will not talk to me, even if I tried to contact. She said no when I asked her hand in marriage. I thought she would be excited. Both of our dream from 2016 will become true. I was not asking her to marry me right away. I needed someone to help me through this hard phase of my life. Whoever does help me, I will be indebted to them forever. I wanted it to be her than someone else. If it's someone else, I will need to fulfil my gratitude to them irrespective of my feelings. I will never be available. Even if the person I marry is abusive, I let them. But never break my promise again.
I know that I promised to believe in our love in 2017 to Ann. I still believe in it. But what is the point me believing in it after I am dead?
Peace out.
Comments
Post a Comment