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Jackie

Jackie is angry that I am leaving. Mainly.because I was here with her for so long and one day I decided to leave. She have helped me countless times. I seemed to her as ungrateful. I had to do a one to one discussion with her to explains my situation. I didn't tell her about Atchaya. Even if I have told her, I am sure she would understand. Her advise was to get divorce if marriage was not working out. In UK, divorce is very common. She says divorce should not be a big deal at all, unlike what Indians think.  Our peace of mind and happiness is much more important than social approval. The society will not help us when we are suffering in a wrong marriage. We only have to get us out. If society condemn us for pursuing our happiness, fuck society. Don't do arrange marriage again. Fall in love and marry. Even love marriages won't work out sometimes. So, obviously arranged marriages have more chance of failure. Your life will be hell if society pressure you into living with some...
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Lawyer

My lawyer asked comprehensive description of what happened between me and Reshma. So, have given her the link to the post "Why I regret my marriage". Then she said she can't access the page. Then I remembered about private blog. Removed private access. I am busy packing. I won't write anything from now on, anyway. Hopefully she won't read rest of the blog. 🤣😂 Lawyers don't have time or patience to read all this shit. I will need to explain the whole thing all over again with more information once I reach India. Other people reading this blog will be long gone. I even doubt if Atchaya have even come back here after I said about her parents. I still don't regret. Someone has to say something.
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Thinking

One of my cousin called me asking for advise. He is around 30 and he loves a north Indian girl in office. He wants to marry her. His parents won't allow because the girl is too young. She is 21. Their concern is that she is too impressionable. Once she grows up, she will regret marrying someone old. This example had me thinking. Isn't this exactly what happened with me and Atchaya? She was 22 when we met. She is 25 now. I was 30 then and is 33 now. Now she must be thinking of me as a mistake done during her impressionable youth. Now she is matured. Now, she will only think about me due to regret of breaking my life. So, if she thinks I have moved on, then she should be able to live her life too. Only escape from the cycle we both are stuck is me moving on and marrying someone. Else let Atchaya think so. Now waiting for her to come back is a futile effort. If She had to come, she would have already. Now, the conclusion is the same as above. To releasing people.
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Ticket

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Booked tickets from Chennai to Trivandrum.
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Fragrance

As I said previously, one thing I like about Atchaya is her fragrance in her locks of hair. She says it's shampoo. But I am yet to see someone else using the same shampoo. 😂🤣😂🤣 I like the shampoo because it uniquely differentiates her. Also because she wears it. Why I am talking about fragrance is because Atchaya also knows about the my liking to the fragrance. When I was in Bangalore, I told her also that she uses the same shampoo as before and I like the smell. She won't speak to me much. So, I also don't speak. Also all my grief was presenting itself as anger. 😵😵 That made us drift part further. Then the next day, she came to office using lot more shampoo than usual. The fragrance was maddening. When I came to office, I could smell her in the lobby long after she was in ODC. I checked the register and could see that she went inside 10 minutes earlier. But it was her. The fragrance was unmistakable. Then the smell filled ODC too. I was confused why she would use the...
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Gift

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Look what I found while doing my packing. I had this stored securely, after it had stopped. Then o forgot about it. It was one of the lesser known gift by Atchaya for my 30th birthday. Lesser known is because this is not much compared to the other gifts she gave me. A day at the water theme park is unforgettable, making that year the best birthday ever. This watch was given to me by Atchaya on my birthday. It didn't last much long because my wife suspected this to be a gift from Atchaya since I was overly fond of it and didn't let me wear it. It eventually ran out of power in the cold climate. I put it in a bag when I packed in 2017, then was forgotten. Today it resurfaced while I was repacking. It's a pleasant surprise. I will try to revive this watch even if I could not revive our love. Peace.
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Cauvery Calling

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Maybe too much. But she called for support and nobody answered. I gave up searching her name on Google. So missed this. Now when I did see, donated on her behalf. I have known about Cauvery calling for some time now. Now got a chance because of her.
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